This is a poignant question. Yesterday was the fourth of July. Eight years ago I displayed a continuation of very poor behavior in an intoxicated state. Three years, four months and some change ago I stopped/arrested my active addiction to alcohol. Once again. I could recount when I have been sober and when I have not been sober through our marriage. The bottom line, which I have accepted, is I caused mental trauma to my lovely wife Cheryl. After several days of discontentedness I felt from her, Cheryl spit it out after a day driving through the mountains. She does not feel I love her. I guess I am waiting to be kind, to myself.
I appreciate all of the kind thoughts, words and encouragement. We had some very good conversation in the morning and evening before and after cutting hay. Namaste.
I am so sorry that Cheryl said this joseph. It is so clear in your writings to us that you love her dearly. In my daughter’s study of 12 steps, one was about asking for forgiveness. This was huge to my son who has finally developed a loving relationship with his sister again. I hope and pray that you both find peace and love again. It does take time and healing.
It takes time,
dear Joseph,
for all participants of an addictive life,
to heal . . .
(I speak from experience)
both you
and your lovely wife Cheryl,
need kindness,
tenderness,
and compassion,
for you both have suffered much.
May you and your wife Cheryl find back to openness and love again, dear Joseph. So sorry for your both grief. Wishing healing for you both and for the trust to come back that Love heals. Blessings to you and Cheryl.
Dear Joseph, thank you for sharing this in a heartfelt way. I appreciate your honestly. It’s not easy to accept our “mistakes”. We are all human and make decisions that can hurt ourselves and others. What is imperative is to see that you are not in that mindset or picture of yourself anymore. You made a decision now to change and move forward. This takes determination and discipline. You do it each day by choosing to live kinder. You are living this right now ! I’m very happy for you . You deserve to be happy and let the past picture world of your burdens go.
Letting go of our pictures is choosing Truth. You are not your past picture. You are alive now and it’s amazing to be free of our past which doesn’t exist. Put the back pack of burdens down. I’m happy you are here with a clear free mind . Take care today . Hugs 🤗
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This is a poignant question. Yesterday was the fourth of July. Eight years ago I displayed a continuation of very poor behavior in an intoxicated state. Three years, four months and some change ago I stopped/arrested my active addiction to alcohol. Once again. I could recount when I have been sober and when I have not been sober through our marriage. The bottom line, which I have accepted, is I caused mental trauma to my lovely wife Cheryl. After several days of discontentedness I felt from her, Cheryl spit it out after a day driving through the mountains. She does not feel I love her. I guess I am waiting to be kind, to myself.
I appreciate all of the kind thoughts, words and encouragement. We had some very good conversation in the morning and evening before and after cutting hay. Namaste.
♥
I am so sorry that Cheryl said this joseph. It is so clear in your writings to us that you love her dearly. In my daughter’s study of 12 steps, one was about asking for forgiveness. This was huge to my son who has finally developed a loving relationship with his sister again. I hope and pray that you both find peace and love again. It does take time and healing.
It takes time,
dear Joseph,
for all participants of an addictive life,
to heal . . .
(I speak from experience)
both you
and your lovely wife Cheryl,
need kindness,
tenderness,
and compassion,
for you both have suffered much.
I hold you in my heart
with love . . . ♥
May you and your wife Cheryl find back to openness and love again, dear Joseph. So sorry for your both grief. Wishing healing for you both and for the trust to come back that Love heals. Blessings to you and Cheryl.
Dear Joseph, may you & your wife find a path to healing. I wish you both peace & love. 🙏🏻🩷
I am sorry you are going through this, Joseph. May you and Cheryl find peace together.
May this all be in the service of continued healing, Joseph.
You deserve your kindness. Sending lots of healing light to you and Cheryl.
I am sheltering you in love when words fall short.
Sending you and Cheryl prayers and healing, Joseph.
Dear Joseph, thank you for sharing this in a heartfelt way. I appreciate your honestly. It’s not easy to accept our “mistakes”. We are all human and make decisions that can hurt ourselves and others. What is imperative is to see that you are not in that mindset or picture of yourself anymore. You made a decision now to change and move forward. This takes determination and discipline. You do it each day by choosing to live kinder. You are living this right now ! I’m very happy for you . You deserve to be happy and let the past picture world of your burdens go.
Letting go of our pictures is choosing Truth. You are not your past picture. You are alive now and it’s amazing to be free of our past which doesn’t exist. Put the back pack of burdens down. I’m happy you are here with a clear free mind . Take care today . Hugs 🤗